|I feel as qualified to do the things I do as this lawn dart is to be a microphone... or a lawn dart!|
In my head, my whole name should be "April Blake, Big Fat Fake!"
Well, it's because I'm certain that I'm not good enough, smart enough, or gosh darn it, qualified enough to do any of the things I do. Writing, being a mom, driving probably, definitely school board member, friend, cook-at-home-type person, life coaching, editing, bookkeeper, public speaker...
Everything I do, I feel like I'm wildly unqualified and just messing it all up.
In fact, if there's one thing I feel patently qualified for, it's being the poster girl for Impostor Syndrome.
The thing is, we all have Impostor Syndrome from time to time. Even when it comes to things we were trained for, and we kind of know we're good at. Because this is just how human nature is. We have access to our own outtakes and blooper reels and self-doubt, while only getting to see everyone else's highlights.
There's a time all of us SHOULD feel like impostors. I mean, I totally deserve to feel like an impostor if I were trying to be a dentist. I didn't go to school for that! I don't have a license! Also, I have been invited not to come to work anymore at the dentist's office like three... four times! Patently unqualified for that line of work, I am. That's not me being mean to me. That is the truth.
It's hard to shake the feeling that you're a fake, though, isn't it?
The important thing to remember, all of us, when we're feeling like frauds and big fat fakes, is to remember that just because you're having feelings doesn't mean they're facts. You FEEL like a fraud. Unless you're trying to do a job that has actual, concrete qualifications that you have to have and YOU DON'T have them, the feelings you're feeling are just that. Feelings. And they'll pass.
You've got this! I, too, probably got this!